I have been re-discovering the joy of photographing things again with my “big gun” Canon camera. I never stopped taking pictures, but used my iphone or point & shoot rather than take out the “big gun” for anything. It was waaaaaaay to much effort to organize myself to take the camera out…I wasn’t feeling creative, inspired, energetic or anything and that was a big change for me. I used to have a system for editing my images for stock and I was forgetting steps and couldn’t remember how to edit nicely anymore.
It has been so much fun getting out and shooting again. With bringing out the “big gun” and all it’s accessories, I am re-learning how the darn thing works again. I am also taking the time to re-learn to edit my images again. I may begin to upload for stock again, but right now I am enjoying just playing with my images and when I am ready will need to re-learn how I did my stock editing steps.
With all this additional physical and creative energy I discovered the wall numerous times this week where I would get very tired, dizzy, sick to stomach, sore head grumpy person. I really do know now what the brain/body disconnect is. My brain keeps yelling at me that I am great, wonderful, perfect; and that I can do anything and everything. My body then follows through with physical stuff until my body just decides to quit without any notice. This lack of forewarning had me down for the count from anywhere from two days this week to a few hours of power resting.
I know that I will not be able to shoot pictures right away after my dad leaves so I am trying now. After my dad leaves I will be focussing on getting some sort of routine that I can remember. Iknow that I can not hole up in the room to edit pictures because the kids would run rampant and I can’t do more than one thing at once. I can only focus on one thing so I would lose track of them. I am also hoping the fatigue will go away with time! Each week I get better and better. With the help of Occupational Therapy at the hospital my memory, concentration, retention and understanding will get better and better.