Okay after I got out of the hospital in September, Chris and I started to look for a new house to live in. We finally found one and were able to spend two months packing. Last week we moved to our new house and love it. Chris and I had loan of a trailer and did a couple of loads so we could spend our first night in the house. The next day the movers came and after that it was a blur. Oh and at the same time I also rented studio space at the Hive Artist Hub.
I really tried to make an effort to pace myself. I would only do a little unpacking a day – except the first day (too much). I have been napping 1.5 hours a day and going to bed early 8:30pm but not falling asleep until after 10pm. I really tried to remember to eat and drink – especially after the first night. We don’t have the swim spa at moment – it is drained, and winterized until spring when we can get a new cement pad put in, so I have been trying to put in steps per day which includes walking the dogs. I know that 10,000 steps is too much for me so I go what I can. I have also been doing meditation and trying to be mindful of what I am feeling. I am trying to be aware. I didn’t go to brain injury relearning sessions. I missed all my alarms as half the time I had no idea where my phone was. Finally all action caught up to me today.
Wyatt this morning was complaining that he didn’t like the new house in the mornings because it was all too rushed. I apologized and said “I don’t have a morning routine here yet and I am so very tired this morning”. I woke up and could barely function and I had to deal with Donovan who was sick to his stomach as well. Brain fog, word finding, thinking straight, perception and vision, making sense, decision making and sleeping all day. I hit the wall.
It may sound bad that I hit the wall – I knew it was coming, but just didn’t know when. When I talked to Chris he really was surprised I lasted as long as I did. He thought I would have been toast long ago. So in fact, this whole crazy busy week has turned into a wonderful success. My energy, strength, endurance and brain function lasted longer than it has in 2.5 years. I know I am getting better and better. I am still inconsistent in a lot of things, but I am seeing improvement.
It will take us months to organize the house, but we will slowly work on it. It has been the best move as there are so many boys for my boys to play with. I am truly grateful we too the giant leap to move. The next important thing is to get the studio space functional. I am at a loss of how to move forward (brain overload) and Chris will come help me tomorrow.
Next step is to get a new morning routine down pat again. That will ease the stress level for not only me, but for the boys as well.