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Neurosurgeon says ETV a success

Last week I went and saw my neurosurgeon. I had a scan done in January of my brain. He confirmed that the ETV hole has good CSF flow and everything looked awesome. He then gave me an MMSE or mini-mental state exam.

He has administered the test three times to me. The first time I scored 24, second 6 months later 25 and 26 just last week. Basically this test is usually used to figure out cognitive impairment overtime with patients with dementia. The test does not incorporate your education level so that has to be adjusted when scoring. My neurosurgeon indicated that prior to surgery I showed signs of mild cognitive impairment…no shit Sherlock. I forgot how to read a map, where the hospital was located, how to do my job…that was scary! It was so frightening to see things slip away, but by the time my surgery, I so impaired that I showed no rational fear about surgery or risks. Since surgery I have thankfully shown progress and now considered not to have cognitive impairment in his eyes or so he lets on!
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The test was easier for me on some parts and challenging on others. The second time I took this test, I had trouble counting back by sevens from 100 that the doc asked if I was trying and I got all teary-eyed. This time I did better and I was impressed with myself. I also 3 out of 5 objects without prompt at end of test. With prompt, I am got one more item. I had trouble when drawing my clock. I couldn’t remember which way the hands went. I was supposed to do 1610 but think if came out like 1320 instead. I even admitted that I couldn’t remember where the hands where to go.

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The funny thing is that people often say that my neurogenic stutter is gone. True the brain is healing and the speech therapist tips, tricks and strategies have helped me considerably but the darn stutter reared it’s ugly head showed up again during the counting backwards part of the test. I think the stutter shows itself, not because I am nervous, or anxious but when my brain is working hard trying to get those connections firing again. I have had so many tests like the MMSE and more intense neuro psych testing, there is no reason to be nervous. I get amazed where I have improved now rather than mouthing hanging wide open…wondering what happened to me.

I admit that I have made large strides and that it is somewhat surreal for me still when I have more than one good day in a row. It is now up to two or three good days in a row (with proper resting and time management) and then I have a bad day and go “oh yeah…this shit again” This TBI/ABI recovery is like a clinger….just won’t let go no matter how hard you try to flick it.

This journey amazes and frustrates me every day. I am so grateful to advocate on behalf of myself more. I understand, interact and communicate more easily. The world that I live in is no longer like being continually drunk or on a spinning amusement park ride. I have the attention span to watch most of a movie or tv show. My memory has improved I have also learned strategies to help with organization, planning and memory. I still need to use those techniques on a daily to basis because if I let them slide, I will become anxious, freeze and not get anything done because I can’t figure out priorities or tasks to do on the fly. I become obsessed over ideas,things and projects and forget about all the other things that I need to do in my routine. I will forget the most basic things but will remember the oddest most inconsequential shit. Chris always shakes his head at me like I am a savant…then we laugh. These are just executive functions of the brain. They will also get better with time too! That’s it time…that seems to go painfully slow with my recovery but yet so fast with other parts of my life.

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Success Despite Brain Injury

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This is such a good story.  Mike’s brain injury led to the loss of his job and inability to provide for his family.  But he decided that he wanted to live for his young family.  Unable to work, the turned to online businesses which gave him hope.  Three years after that incident, he is able to earn more than his previous high-paying job and more importantly he can be with and enjoy his family.  

Read more about Mike’s Story, how he achieved success, and his invitation for you to be online business partners.

This story resonates with me because my special needs twins may not get that college degree or even get into the “rat race”. Laying down the groundworks and building an online business will certainly help them by-pass the “rat race”.

In the photo:  Me and my Nathan.  He does not go to school.  Instead, I’m his Mommy-Therapist…

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How many layers of an Onion

A long time ago in a blog far far away, I wrote about the cliche of how a TBI/ABI compares to an onion in my recovery.

Well now I am wondering just how many onions are there in this journey? Definitely more than one, two…three or a whole sack? Can someone tell me? I would really like to know.

I mean I am definitely way more cognitively aware this year, even my memory is remembering weird stuff but forgetting the easy stuff. I have been trying to cut down on the naps and pushing through with the aid of my sleeping pills at night again.

I successfully handled my son’s first hockey tournament, thank goodness for hubby to help get my son ready, ear plugs, across arena seating. I even enjoyed watching the games. I even did 50-50 sales. It took me a bit with adding and splitting funds as I had to re-count over six times but I did it!!!

I made it through the feelings of anxiety and overstimulation by breathing and sleeping. I felt so exhausted by Sunday, that I exclaimed that it was weird that Wy had energy and I was sapped when you would think that the person playing on the ice (Wy) would be the tired one. I now can work with the fish trying to go upstream type of visual & feeling in a public situation. I still have a hard time trying to watch hockey via netting; it is very distracting and gives me a headache instantly.

A really big accomplishment for me was not shoving a horn up a guys butt. We were sitting on the other side of ice away from stands to avoid excess noise and visual distractions. I had ear plugs in and of course dude comes and decides to watch the game where we were. OMG. I was so close to snapping, but I didn’t. I acted like an adult but in my head horn guy didn’t fair so well. Especially since the other team scored 12 goals and I had to endure that excessive horn blowing for all 12 goals and then some added horn blowing as well.

So many positives this year already but then when I have accomplished a goal of living, another little thing decides to become a challenge. I am not too sure if it is because I was focussing on issues that these ones have now become important to me. I have been to the doctor three times, have had blood tests once. I had a form for other blood tests, but lost it. So the good news is that I do not have diabetes but now we are thinking the my pituitary or hypothalamus may be acting up with hormone and/or body regulation. With that I really do not know what that means just yet or what direction we will be going. I guess this can happen right away to a person with a TBI, the next day or even years after the initial injury.

So here’s hoping to a sale on onions in the produce department because I may have a whole sack to peel layer by layer
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